Approaching death of the ego

Sometimes god gives our ego a new low. He redefines how much the ego should bend to humility. such an experience lightens the heart but leaves a memory and a mark.

I observe the same fear in people all around the world -- job related insecurity, old age and being single, divorced people who feel people with family are blessed, lonely people who resort to mindfulness and meditation. Happening all over the world. I attended a sangha meditation centre in Milwaukee and saw that a pediatrician was there, an old lawyer was there, a man who was about to get divorced was there, old women who are about to die were there, relative middle aged people who have gone through much sufferings were there.

Sometimes we don't understand why people dislike us -- but go deep inside them and it becomes clear the sufferings that they are going through and what it is which is making them hate us. when someone does something to you which you are not able to understand, it means there is something about you which you don't understand yourself. Why? because the same energy flows in them which is flowing in you. Everyone is behaving out of conditioning and therefore nobody is guilty. Yet nobody is innocent because they have a choice on how to use their energies. Wow -- such an awesome creation of God. He creates the world of opposites and gives a choice to souls.

Looking again at the back of the mind, there is nothing else other than the present moment all the time. memories is what makes the mind interfere. As UG Krishnamurthy says there is no way you can experience anything at all without the knowledge of it. The vicious cycle is such that Knowledge "enables" experiencer to experience and the experiences fortifies the knowledge. In the present moment there is no memory, no knowledge, no experience -- just beingness. Yet there is no word to describe the state. Buddha calls it emptyiness, Jesus called it the fullness of life. Yet they all describe the same thing.

Knowledge and the conditioning it creates

I read this article ( http://www.well.com/user/jct/mystiq1.htm ) about how U.G Krishna Murthy attained enlightenment. One thing that stood out for me is the way knowledge was not interfering with his process of thinking which made him stay in the de-clutched state.

We all know the cycle of Gnana-ichcha-Kriya (how knowledge leads to desire and then to action) -- we do things every day based on this principle. Things we buy, things we fear and escape from etc all these decisions are influenced by past knowledge. This leads to desire,anger fear etc based on the nature of the knowledge. Then w take action based on that frame of mind - not always the best decisions as they are tainted with past. The best decisions are those that are made in the eternal now.