Always Watch

Thanks to the speech by Ramakrishnananda a few ideas became stronger today.

Its easy to be the watcher for short amount of time, but needs a new subconscious programming for maintainning that state for longer periods. Every time the little "i" tries to come forward and dominate the awareness by identifying itself with the instruments of watching such as eyes, ears, tongue, body, stomach etc

Even brief amounts of time being the watcher gives an idea, a sort of eye opener on the amount of external engagement and ramification the mind undergoes ever minute.

Krishna says in the Gita:

NA HI KASHCHIT KSHANAMAPI JATU TISHTATI AKARMA KRIT
KARYATE HY AVASHAHA KARMA SARVAHA PRAKRITIJAIR GUNAIH.

No one can ever remain, even for a moment, without performing action. Everyone, with-out his will, is made to do and be in action by the qualities born of prakriti.

The difference between a normal person and a jnani is this, a normal person can experience the "now" state for short amounts of time, eventually the watcher identification with the instruments of watching occurs and the person finds himself roaming around and around in the ramifications of the conscious and the subconscious mind circles (samsara)

A Jnani on the other hand, by the results of his tapas and sadhana, is able to be in the state of the watcher, where the will to be and remain the watcher dominates the mind, his subconscious is so programmed by the results of tapas that his superconscious faculties are functioning in him. Thus one of the first qualities of the soul -- which is that of observation becomes prominent.

Excerpt from Merging with Siva:


'When you are in meditation, you watch the mind. Here and there the mind is hopping. One, two, three,...a hundred. In a few seconds the mind goes to a hundred places. Let him be. You also watch very carefully. Here and there this mind is running. Don't forget Self for a second. Let him go anywhere, but if he goes to a hundred places, you must follow him to a hundred places. You must not miss even a single one. Follow him and note,He is going here. Now he is going there.' You must not miss even a single one. That is the prescription Satguru Yogaswami gave me to open this inner book. He said, 'Watch very attentively and learn to pick up things coming from within. Those messages are very valuable. You can't value them. Realize Self by self and open this inner book. Why don't you open your own book? Why don't you make use of it? Why don't you open your own book? What an easy path I am prescribing for you!' "

Another approach to de-identifying oneself from the ego is by using the Ramana Maharshi approach, im not this eyes, not the senses, not the mind, not the ego, not the form, not even the one who says "not this not this". This method is particularly effective followed by "seeing" how the mind and body was sooo consumed in a particular area of thought and its associated ramifications

Read Merging with Siva chapter here

Last but not the least, always remember that Siva is the life within your life -- and only through him the correct understanding comes to face the prarabdha karma for this lifetime and beyond

Aum namah sivaya

The small "i"

There is a small i which wants to do so many things but yet not determined to do anything at all, whose diversification of energies are so much that finally nothing gets done,  I have observed you and am watching you dear "small i"

The process of meditation is to watch this small "i" and go about facing life and its karmas which have been self-created knowing that Siva is the life of your life. This is not just a belief but a fact, armed with this knowledge one knows that there is no karma that's impossible to overcome since Siva is watching it and leading you through life.

When the mind wants to be elsewhere than where it is, wants to be someone else than what it is, wants to more than what it has, thinks about what it was, and what it will be or should be, what it should have done or what it should be doing --- in all these cases its easy to observe the functions of the small "i".

Busy life

Life has become extremely busy, more busy at home than at work, thanks to my 6 month old :)

Siva is the life of your life

This one video can transform the life of someone like how it did to me. Such simple truth's by such a great guru.  I love you gurudeva.

After listening to gurudeva in this video, i personally got so inspired to face life and its karma's that everything smoothened out in my personal / professional life. Life has become like heaven at home and at work because at the back of the mind is the belief that Siva is the life of my life, any karma can be faced cheerfully with this belief at the back of the mind. Belief is so powerful. And this is truth not just a belief -- that Siva is the life within your life.

Observations in Jan

My observation has really improved in the last few Weeks and I'm able to observe so many things about myself which are part of the ego

+ addiction to finding a new ROM update for my phone, Thx to Android, this frankly has become too much time consuming and its time I do something about it

+ the instinctive mind is still extremely strong in me, fear, anger. I have no right to be judgmental on anyone as the what irks you in someone else is also in you, its the way human mind is with all its addictions to pleasure and escapades from pain, anger especially is if you see

+ observed the maximum ramifications of the mind in dreams, I write every morning whatever dreams I remember, when I look back, most of them just show how the mind branches and connects unrelated thoughts, they hardly make sense, few of them are specific ones where the mind mind is trying to express a repressed desire (leading to either the completion of that karma or intensification of it depending on how you react to it in real world)

+ mind plans to make a complete productive weekend but due to a lack of clear specific goal, most of them are wasted in useless pursuits

+ witnessed how the mind feels insecure if it doesn't hold to a belief (borrowed concept) during day to day life and conversations.

+ figured out how to be a good listener -- Really helps to b a Gud listener if you're observing where a person is in consciousness, generally all talks are abt esc pain/seek pleasure

+ men and women are not the same at all in the mind and the way we think, women are high on emotions: anger, fear, jealousy -- and they connect Past memories and future speculation when a topic makes them upset.same thing occurs in men also at times but not as freely as women.

+ does being ambitious and contentment go hand in hand? There is no contentment in the mind, it is after next thing always

+ when you see people of irritating nature and are upset with them, it is time to turn inwards are examine myself, the root cause of the problem is there.

+ When mind is too busy satisfying short term (immediate) desires, it loses focus on long term goals. Most of the failures in life can be attributed to this nature of man. The key may be to have a long term goal and have daily short term goals which are aligned to the long term goals

+ observed that when a man gets very old, he has trouble getting even the basic tasks correct --such as getting up with ease, attending nature calls, eating food by using hands properly, staying active and alert, the physical body must be well maintained to ensure it gives you good support even when old, by doing exercise and yoga, treat the taking care of the physical body as an investment, the dividends will surely help you when you are old.

+ people may be poorer than you, don't lose your humility with them, remain humble, pride is a strict no, nobody likes a selfish haughty guy at the end of the day

+ wasting money at the salon due to lack of awareness/questioning and also the uncomfortable dress I bought at Levis spending lot of money