Fooling myself

Observing the ego do things seems foolish at times. Even spiritual goals are for selfish ends such as acquiring some power, Intuition, control over nature, mind etc

Praying Paramasiva for blessing this being with Paramashanta manifestation 

Hey Bolenatha, my guru says you simply listen, I haven't seen you but I believe in my guru. If He says,you must exist. This being isn't mature enough to hold you constantly or even perfectly, please manifest in me and bless me with your space, state, powers and being. Let me experience you as you and me as you. Aum Namah Shivaya

Recent clicks and life graph

How you react to a situation is more about your judgements about the situation than the actual situation

“The first principle of practical Stoicism is this: we don’t react to events; we react to our judgments about them, and the judgments are up to us." 

This is my life graph from the Meditation training.The lower scores indicate

Life Graph from meditation self reflecting training

Reflections on this week so far

Paramasivoham 🙏🏼

What went well

- Everything ☺️

- Food, running, weight, energy, love, feeling connection with Siva, pooja, yoga,ML algorithms training, cloud computing training, The sapiens book, Meditation training

What can be improved

- Nothing ... Coz life is perfect right now. Thanks to Siva

- only thing I miss is I want Siva to help me understand His story and believe in the truth. I don't want to believe everything that religion says is just a story. If it is then it's a huge problem, I want to know the truth of life and Gods and reincarnation and karma

Sunday Reflections ... Cricket academy

What went well 

- Morning coaching for Junior at cricket academy

- Conversations with family

- Coaching kid on different aspects of life including taking bath, tying lace, practicing strength exercises etc

- All issues unwound themselves when you just give attention 🙂 and the same people who cause issues correct themselves. 

- overall a great day, driving back here to Rjngr, 

Nice evening run at the park. Saw this beautiful road lit up

What needs improvement

- Dealing with selfish people when they don't want to share a recipe as simple as the type of chutney pudi powder with other family members. And think it's their unique talent. Ghatiya soch.

- Late evening allergic rhinitis condition recurring. Hoping the Homeo treatment will take care of this.

Reflections on Saturday and Friday

What went well

Applying tiny habits helped in buying a gloves and shoes later

walking and enrolling son into RxCricket, It also cost a lot of money, but was worth seeing the happiness on his face. 

Enrolling into meditation course on Coursera 

Time at parentsand helping them with health

Homeopathy medicine from Rajeev is helpful so far atleast.

Stoic books from Ethan. 

- Follow virtue, happiness will follow - consciously replace any temperance with powerful virtues

- converting adversary into positive perspectives (Siva using snake as garland)

- Dont be attached to impermanent things.

What could have been better

wife panicked when I told her my intention of enrolling son into R x Academy. Need to improve my messaging skills. 

Pay full attention when wife talks :) - else you can land in trouble

More self awareness when you talk to emotional people.

Don't retaliate when upset.If V Said some complaint to N - then understand Impulse and the Judgement mind has about that Impulse before responding.