Tough Experiences this week

Went through lot of tough experiences this week. Many things which I was not aware of myself came into light.

- My Extreme attachment to become rich.
- How anger can lead to insanity in every man, root cause of anger being fear.
- Humility is a strength far greater than any sort of power or ego.
- When you do things by thinking which is against what you know you should be doing, sooner or later there will be consequences
- If you are struggling and reacting over something the root cause of the problem, the sore spot is inside you.
- Both the God and the Satan are inside us, we choose what we want to become or how we want to behave.

Learnings this week

Watch the mind and be cautious. It always seeks a new desire, reacts quickly to circumstances and gets itself into trouble.

Wait for thoughts to collect before speaking. I'm yet to practice this.

Feel the spine, lean on it, this leads to the eee sound.

Realize the SELF this very life by transmuting the desires.

Don't be attached to anything money, career or people. Be affectionately detached.

Watch the mind think. Exercise half hour daily. Yet to practice exercising.

Live life in such a way that you walk in the rain without getting wet. Like water drop on a lotus plant leaf.

Conquer insensitive and cruel feelings towards people by understanding.

Live with Siva, Dance with Siva and Merge with Siva.

Availability and attention

I practiced these two qualities this week as per my gurus advice and the results are astonishing.

I was able to be an extremely good listener and due to this relationships with peers and family improved. People knew that I listen and was ever available for help. A new energy started building up in me which would never quell. At the busiest times when someone asked me for help, I consciously avoided the feeling of continuation of my work, stopped it and helped the other person. This gave a sort of satisfaction which couldn't be described by words. Also my own work became easier after helping someone.

Lift someone's burden and unknowingly somewhere you will be lifting your own burden. That's what gurudeva said. How fortunate I'm in this life to be associated with a soul like gurudeva. How I wish I had met him directly only once at least?

He lives in me each moment through his books. Thanks gurudeva for a lesson of a lifetime.

On earth to realize the self

The only reason to be here on earth is to realize the SELF. My gurudeva keeps stressing this again and again to drive the point strongly.

Not here to earn money, to clothe myself, to even have family or to eat. Only here to realize the SELF, to have that one dramatic experience where everything you thought is turned upside down.

It is what is always been known to the knower. That is the goal, direct your energies towards it. Yet it is even wrong to call it a goal. Self realization is an experience only after it has been experienced, yet it is wrong to even call it an experience, but the only possible non-experience.

When karma is controlled through yoga and dharma well performed, then the description of Truth mentioned by the yogis and rishis of yore becomes obvious.

After SELF realization you see the mind for what it is - a self created principle. That is the mind - always creating, preserving and destroying concepts and beliefs. What gives the mind that power? What's the use of asking this question and how does it matter when the SELF exists by itself.

When the instinctive mind and the intellectual mind have been conquered and when the energies are transmuted to their ultimate state, the subtle hidden truth behind obvious . One day you will realize the SELF.

Poise

"The struggle with the mind is an easy struggle if you are constantly vigilant, all of the time, doing always what you know you should do, not allowing the mind to become instinctive, not excusing the mind when it does become instinctive, not allowing the mind to justify, rationalize, excuse, become combative, but making the mind always remain poised, like a hummingbird over a flower, so that you begin to live in the eternal now, constantly, permanently. And then the within becomes natural to you, not something you hear about, study about, talk about, sing about, for you become open, awakened within."