New year new beginnings, Republic day

From today I have prayed Shiva to keep my inner space as simple as possible as original as possible, as complete as possible to be able to see things as they are, be able to take the right decisions and be able to do work effortlessly without getting entangled and praying the supreme Cosmos who is the creator of quantum physics and who is also the creator of quantum entanglement to create the reality like the way I am requesting it to be. 

New life

By Paramasiva's grace I have started a new job at Amazon, something which cleared my self-doubts about my will persistence. none of this would have happened without the grace of paramasiva and my parents. 

One month into it - I am continuing to be overwhelmed by the amount of things i have to learn and also by the sheer vast knowledge that i have to internalize.  

Yet there are many goals to be internalized perfectly - such as bramhacharya, and the ability to stay in contenplative states while doing my work, I am reading a book called "Meditation for Busy people" by acharya Rajaneesh (Osho). He quotes this

Wherever your attention alights, at that point experience

This is expected to create a circle between the object and the observer, and one can see the observer, observed and the act of observing both simultaneously. 

 My guru said something similar about Swami Vivekananda. he could gallop a complete book by using this technique. But the lady Sanyasin from the Swamis mission said differently - she said he could glance the whole page and get the gist of it.

Completion with different sexes

Due to the grace of paramasiva, I am grateful to have been blessed with completion with opposite sexes, same sexes, no sex, oversexed and undersexed aspects of the being which manifests in the world in many incompletions.

Paramasivoham

Fooling myself

Observing the ego do things seems foolish at times. Even spiritual goals are for selfish ends such as acquiring some power, Intuition, control over nature, mind etc

Praying Paramasiva for blessing this being with Paramashanta manifestation 

Hey Bolenatha, my guru says you simply listen, I haven't seen you but I believe in my guru. If He says,you must exist. This being isn't mature enough to hold you constantly or even perfectly, please manifest in me and bless me with your space, state, powers and being. Let me experience you as you and me as you. Aum Namah Shivaya

Recent clicks and life graph

How you react to a situation is more about your judgements about the situation than the actual situation

“The first principle of practical Stoicism is this: we don’t react to events; we react to our judgments about them, and the judgments are up to us." 

This is my life graph from the Meditation training.The lower scores indicate

Life Graph from meditation self reflecting training