Sunday, October 13, 2024

Free will (or lack thereof)

Everything that's happening in my life is not because of my will though it appears it's because of my will.

I'll continue to contemplate more on this. But if surrender is all a matter of releasing the individual will to divine will and surrendering to it, when was I not ever in surrender? Perhaps I'm only consciously surrendering now but in reality I didn't have a choice but be in surrender?

Praying Shiva at around 05:55 evening for His darshan while walking around Lake, in some form or other other (but preferably a form I can understand :) ... 

At around 5:58 while I typed this. I see 3 snakes one after another Aum Namah Shivaya 

And around 7 dogs :) Aum Bhairavaya Namah

- Changes started in life with BK taking MS site leader role.
- Fate pushed me for taking interview for Director role. 
- Fate made me lose it.
- Fate made me go through a small dark night of soul and felt let down when I was rejected.
- Fate made me aggressively apply outside 
- Fate made me lose and win, lose and win
- Fate made me win AMZ
- Fate made me helpless but choose the offer 
- Fate made me work there with so many changes 
- Fate made my health go bad and struggle with work life balance and continuous change of Mgrs.
- Fate made me leave it and come back to Connectivity 
- Fate made me meet soul connect
- Fate made me feel the feelings 
- Fate made me accept life as it comes 
- Fate made me experience it and get attached 
- Fate created good memories 
- Fate made me lose everything 
- Fate made me devoted to Shiva

What else you've got for me Fate ? Is there anything called Free will?


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