Sudden Attachment

Dispute all the detachment and 1ness with Shiv and feeling devoted to Shiva and constantly keeping him in the mind. There are times when the mind suddenly goes back to Old patterns. 

Constantly be persistent on meditating on Shiva with Ajapajapa. Discard the world. Remember there is no such thing called free will. Everything is orchestrated by Shiva/Shakti - Right eye twitching when I type this 

Saw 9:11 on phone today.

DECISION NOT TO GIVE UP ON YOUR INTENTION TO BE SIVA. EITHER TOU GIVE LIFE TO "GIVING UP" OR "WILL PERSISTENCE.."