Energy drain

Sep 27th woke up early morning at 4.15 or so and again slept. Was a mistake I think as I got some W dreams and felt as if my energies drained a lot 

And today I felt I'm not able to be as much in surrender as I used to be  yesterday and before. My mind is going to older addictive patterns of obsessive behaviour, which was a bit scary. Because i thought I had attained Oneness with my Guru eternally. And had no wishes for even union