Yin Yang

Twin flame journeys are like Yin Yang - when you are in peace and in surrender - not running or chasing - there is a presence of twin flame Kundalini energy when you don't want it or expect it. And that then disappears leaves behind a trace of expectation, sadness longing or craving which then creates a subtle chase.

But the big realization I had yesterday is that it's not the TF that comes - it's the Kundalini shakti that has got activated that comes and makes you come out of the comfort zone and work towards Enlightenment. 

You then have to work on yourself bring yourself back to surrender. Let go of the past and future and stay in the present to again work on yourself.

In a nutshell what I understood from others who are on TF journey is that one gets like a homework assignment or assignment whenever they meet their TF and that leaves you to work on yourself when you are alone or in separation until the next union occurs and the cycle repeats. 

One way to escape from this ying yang is taking a concrete decision like taking up Sanyas or Renunciation. Break the Maya and Karma itself. Close all the doors so that new ones can be opened. Should I give it a try ?