Also the whole point of this relationship or love was, the basis of the foundation was mutual spiritual progress, lack of ego (or selfish love) and divine love, when that itself has been found to be a lie or not respected, loyalty itself has been removed, what's the point being in such a relationship even if it resulted in union?
What was i thinking? I've never been and to maintain love relationships in my life though I've been able to create a space for love to happen. But I've been loyal always and given a lot in my relationships without receiving in return. Been humble. Put my ego and self respect down to make others feel good. I do deserve Love. Yes i have not been intense in my sadhana but I have atleast been doing it.
Also I did analysis irrespective of whether it's a regular breakup or twin flame relationship breakup there is nothing I can do irrespective of whether there is a union or not. Because there is no clear reason for the breakup whereas in the past it was lack of full commitment (K). I was not giving time to people (RK) . Goal was never clear and so was it here. What to do if someone loves you other than talk to them and maybe spend time with them ? Nothing more.
The only point of fruition of this whole process is if it actually results in death of the ego. Yes surrender is happening now more frequently which otherwise wouldn't have happened. But the ego is still alive. Else there is no point of this pain i went through. All the pain I went through during DNOTS/E is waste if I don't put this pain into complete surrender and Self realization. The DNOTS / dark night of the ego has probably purged some of my sins but that's about it.
So the focus should be to make this pain into a successful death of the ego by understanding the 3rd energy if it's really true or so
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