Unwanted Erotic dreams

Not sure why sometimes I get them... Does everyone get them ... Meet strangers in dreams ? .... Unable to maintain the thoughts that I'm in a dream when such dreams occur. This awareness is called lucid dreaming where one is aware that one is in a dream. One can overcome Karma is he is constantly aware -- my guru says.

Need to do some reading and research about this.

Meanwhile this beautiful picture from a nearby lake where I go for running

Third eye 👀 initiation dream

15th Oct: 

My Gurudev Shri paramhansa Nityananda came in my dream this early morning.I remember seeing him sitting inside some form of ticketing counter is looking like his older self, slightly chubby and then I approach the counter and suddenly see him inside. 

After seeing him I ask his blessings and he immediately agrees and opens another counter from which he he moves his hand and touches my forehead third eye area with his thumb and I can actually feel his thumb touching in my third eye area when this happens, Conscious of the energy in my third eye area.After this thank you a lot and the dream ended.

Obsession over learning

Different types of patterns from past play out the

Moment you get good at manifesting what you want 

intellectual learning somehow becomes high priority for the mind and it forgets at times about being centered. Even forgets Ajapajapa in Vaak and Feeling connection. 

An inner balance is needed so that one pursuit or habit does not dilute the others, especially the core principles of identity and values. 

Reading atomic habits

Started listening to this audiobook called Atomic Habits. While it's too early to comment as I'm still in early chapters I thought I'll reflect on things that clicked in me and maybe continue updating this post on the clicks I receive going fwd also:

14 Oct 2020: 

There are there levels of change in a human being

1. At the outcome level where one just chooses to change the goal or outcomes in life

2. At the system or process level where one chooses to change the processes that lead to an outcome.

3. At the identity level, where one chooses to shift the identity itself

The third one struck to me the most as all these days i was focused on 1 & 2 which was sort of leading me to 3. What 3 tells me is that get conscious of current habits first and then put a + or - sign against them to check whether they are aligned to your identity or not. 

Example 1 : if I want to shift my identity to brahmacharya, then each and every moment when I am conscious of a beautiful female that I see on the road or a past thought of an ex-girlfriend should be handled differently compared to what the existing habits do.

Example 2:  If my identity is going to be that of a Jivanmukta, a Yogi and a Paramahamsa .... Then yoga, meditation, pranayama, power manifestation all these would have a plus next to them and things like laziness feelings, waking up late, spending time on social media, chatting with friends, arguments at work all take a minus sign.

Here is the link to the scorecard of current habits from James Clear - author of atomic habits

https://jamesclear.com/atomic-habits/scorecard

54+ tiny habits

Able to manifest 50-60 habits everyday to manifest whatever I want to manifest. Thanks to Tiny habits from BJFogg. Never has been a time where this being in me felt more in control of this body and mind. Thank you Paramasiva for making me manifest whatever I want. This COVID situation has helped me progress immensely on my spiritual goals. Thank you Paramasiva. Again and again at your feet.

I have the atma linga in my chest all the time, Ajapajapa happening constantly whenever possible, mind in unclutching and heart in a strong feeling connection with Paramasiva. While all this is happening - able to manifest breaking of laziness patterns by daily exercise and yoga, active lifestyle, nirahara samyama (bit difficult to follow at parents place but managing). Able to do Siva pooja daily with beautiful flowers. Able to visit temple almost every other day. Able to break the usual engrams leading to anti-aging - be it of lust or other desires related to body, identify them when they start bringing their hoods up and catch them and ferociously Unclutch from them.

Able to Also manifest learning whatever I want in Artificial intelligence, Machine learning, Agile SW using LEAN, reading books etc.

Now I need to focus on Awakening the kundalini fire 🔥 and making it manifest strongly in my life like how it happened in 2018 Nov. 

Aum Nithyananda Paramasivoham