Fooling myself

Observing the ego do things seems foolish at times. Even spiritual goals are for selfish ends such as acquiring some power, Intuition, control over nature, mind etc

Praying Paramasiva for blessing this being with Paramashanta manifestation 

Hey Bolenatha, my guru says you simply listen, I haven't seen you but I believe in my guru. If He says,you must exist. This being isn't mature enough to hold you constantly or even perfectly, please manifest in me and bless me with your space, state, powers and being. Let me experience you as you and me as you. Aum Namah Shivaya

Recent clicks and life graph

How you react to a situation is more about your judgements about the situation than the actual situation

“The first principle of practical Stoicism is this: we don’t react to events; we react to our judgments about them, and the judgments are up to us." 

This is my life graph from the Meditation training.The lower scores indicate

Life Graph from meditation self reflecting training

Reflections on this week so far

Paramasivoham 🙏🏼

What went well

- Everything ☺️

- Food, running, weight, energy, love, feeling connection with Siva, pooja, yoga,ML algorithms training, cloud computing training, The sapiens book, Meditation training

What can be improved

- Nothing ... Coz life is perfect right now. Thanks to Siva

- only thing I miss is I want Siva to help me understand His story and believe in the truth. I don't want to believe everything that religion says is just a story. If it is then it's a huge problem, I want to know the truth of life and Gods and reincarnation and karma

Sunday Reflections ... Cricket academy

What went well 

- Morning coaching for Junior at cricket academy

- Conversations with family

- Coaching kid on different aspects of life including taking bath, tying lace, practicing strength exercises etc

- All issues unwound themselves when you just give attention 🙂 and the same people who cause issues correct themselves. 

- overall a great day, driving back here to Rjngr, 

Nice evening run at the park. Saw this beautiful road lit up

What needs improvement

- Dealing with selfish people when they don't want to share a recipe as simple as the type of chutney pudi powder with other family members. And think it's their unique talent. Ghatiya soch.

- Late evening allergic rhinitis condition recurring. Hoping the Homeo treatment will take care of this.

Reflections on Saturday and Friday

What went well

Applying tiny habits helped in buying a gloves and shoes later

walking and enrolling son into RxCricket, It also cost a lot of money, but was worth seeing the happiness on his face. 

Enrolling into meditation course on Coursera 

Time at parentsand helping them with health

Homeopathy medicine from Rajeev is helpful so far atleast.

Stoic books from Ethan. 

- Follow virtue, happiness will follow - consciously replace any temperance with powerful virtues

- converting adversary into positive perspectives (Siva using snake as garland)

- Dont be attached to impermanent things.

What could have been better

wife panicked when I told her my intention of enrolling son into R x Academy. Need to improve my messaging skills. 

Pay full attention when wife talks :) - else you can land in trouble

More self awareness when you talk to emotional people.

Don't retaliate when upset.If V Said some complaint to N - then understand Impulse and the Judgement mind has about that Impulse before responding.

Enriching Thursday

Today's biggest achievement is i was able to convince and influence both my parents to follow Nirahara Samyama - something that I never thought was possible.  As they don't listen to me.  But this time they did. I wonder why.  

I have also observed that there is more confidence in my words when they listen to me.

All the three offerf us for the first time in our lives together did nirahara Samyama today and stayed on liquids for the whole day. Of course I've done it many times alone 

I also read the book created bySteve Chandler

He presented this table below which I'm attempting to answer. 

Nauseous the whole summary is try to ask yourself what should I be creating whenever there is a problem. and who should you be? (Identity) 

Another decent day

Today I woke up really late maybe it has to do with the medicine which I took yesterday evening. Had a peaceful day at parents place. 

Siva also blessed me with the opportunity to take my dad to ICICI Bank, HDFC Bank, chartered accountant office and LIC office. While there I observed parrots mating with each other in a cage.  Birds should never be held captive and should be let free in my opinion. 

 Thanks to Siva for connecting me with my cousin rajiv who is also homoeopath.  He has prescribed some medicine for the allergic rhinitis. Let's see if it works. 

I'm making good progress in reading the book The Sapiens by yuval Noah Hariri. It is an amazing book and changes ones perspective about life.  

 Had the nice Darshan of Siva at the temple after my morning run. 

Did one interview. Also waited for my turn in the platforming meeting which never came.  My turn would be in next meeting . Which means more time to prepare. 

 I'm ending my day while I'm reading this from merging with Siva

Sing on Friday or Monday and dedicate your song to the spirit within you that gave you the power to open your mouth in the first place, and you will find that your consciousness will expand.

Another great day

After following the Maui habit, "after my feet touches the ground,  it's going to be a great day somehow"  the days are actually becoming great.  

I was able to do my morning routine today despite some challenging circumstances like cough.   I had a good run and exercise in the park.  After that nithya made some nice porridge like drink popularly known as Kanji, made using health mix of various ingredients such as nuts grains etc.  

After this I drove to my other home to visit my parents.  Had a nice lunch.  Rested well.  Listened to  Yuval Noah Harrari's book called "Sapiens". It's an amazing book.  Investments are up today.  Thanks to Mother Lakshmi. Over the last few days watch the wonderful movie about Air Deccan founder Mr Gopinath it was an amazing movie in Tamil named as Soorarai Pottru -- Story of will persistence.

I was also able to complete one of the machine learning assignments today. I cannot believe that I completed an assignment Where I implemented regularization. Regularization helps in better fitting the model to the training data so the predictions are more accurate on the test data. Implemented this for Logistic regression though the equation was very tough. 

May Try to post a picture of my assignment here if possible later.

Loving and peaceful Diwali

Day went really well with a nice morning run amongst these beautiful birds

Then a nice chat following Raagi malt type of drink at the vendor. He showed his sons, daughter in-laws and granddaughters photos to me. 

Then brought groceries to wife. She was happy that some of it saved her time. Especially the ready to eat chapatis. 

By Siva's grace was able to fix the problem of bed where the holder of the wooden plank had unscrewed itself and had fallen down. 

Day was good no laziness even a little bit. Had a great shower following meeting my buddy and his kid. Following a drive and ride for the kiddo

The day went fine. Downloaded the books from chetan bhagat and sent to wife as well as she wanted one. 

Played for some time with Vedant and then did my finances in the evening to understand how the growth has been so far and the new networth computation. 

Meanwhile an old cousin gave the homeopathic medicine prescription for allergy. Have to buy it tomorrow. 

KBC and other distractions kept family happy. Leander Paes was the special guest for diwali on the show and gave a lot of laughter to family.. planning to visit parents tomorrow

Night was able to complete the pooja for both days( I had missed yesterday as well )

Eka bilvam Sivarpamam  🌿

lost red tennis ball

Thanks to the Cosmos, helped me locate the red tennis ball which was hidden in the grass while playing cricket. Had lost hopes. Then one couple came and found it. They had hare Krishna symbol of Vaishnava tradition in forehead 

Also day went very well. No arguments with anyone. Got to play well with junior. Minor headache evening which later went away

Watched some series on WW2 ... Germans were ruthless killers of polish. 

Identity shift

My Identity has began to shift I must say. And I'm able to say that now with confidence.Never has there been a time in my life where I was able to confidently say I can manifest whatever I want to manifest. Thanks to Paramasiva. 

1. Ability to write complex code. And learn Machine learing. such as gradiant descent, linear regression, logistic regression, sigmoid function, Learn Neural network

2. Ability to visit temples no matter where I am.

3. Ability to do yoga and exercise everyday

4. Ability to form a near perfect body with a good BMI

5. Ability to still have all official meetings on time and work officially with perfect timing.

6. Get the best of both worlds - parents and family

7. Have time to learn and explore Sivas world

 

8. listen to Songs and feel for Siva

9. Manifest Miracles such as flower falling in temple.

10. Ability to coach my son and play cricket with him. Make him miss me.

11. Manifest whatever I want in the material world such as this tablet, many more things where a wish became a will.

12. Ability to handle difficult people and their emotions.

13. Ability to train and enrich others.

14. Make good progress in learning Python 

15. Make investments grow. Take right decisions.

16. Be able to read books such as atomic habits and tiny habits audiobooks. 

18. Take right medicine and guidance to detox body

19. Perform Siva pooja regularly.

20. Be able to follow and manifest Nirahara Samyama. 

21. Ability to influence others and make them also follow Nirahara Samyara.

22. Abundance of wealth consciousness. 

23. Ability to learn now books quickly using Ethan's Xmindmaps 

24. Ability to remember powerful cognitions at the right moments 

25. Have a fulfilling relationship with parents and extended family members

26. Collect flowers for Siva Pooja

27. Play and enjoy his beautiful songs 🎵 

28. Beautiful car that accompanies me wherever I go.

29. Lesser conflict even in tough situations such as my car touching Yash's car or being stopped by traffic cops.

30. Getting the entertainment I want 

31. Innovate at home such as the mosquito net battey replacement using my own Soldering gun 

Thanks a million times to Parandhama Paramashiva 

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