Fooling myself

Observing the ego do things seems foolish at times. Even spiritual goals are for selfish ends such as acquiring some power, Intuition, control over nature, mind etc

Praying Paramasiva for blessing this being with Paramashanta manifestation 

Hey Bolenatha, my guru says you simply listen, I haven't seen you but I believe in my guru. If He says,you must exist. This being isn't mature enough to hold you constantly or even perfectly, please manifest in me and bless me with your space, state, powers and being. Let me experience you as you and me as you. Aum Namah Shivaya