Shedding the personality

As events from the past come up from the subconscious due to the shakti power of meditation, i re-discover every time that the only way is to face and resolve them in the clear white light through understanding coupled with the vasana daha tantra.

These past happenings come up in the least expected moments and in dreams where there is no control over awareness. In those areas of the mind, the desires remain unfulfilled, and are peppered with fear, fear that life may not have much to offer than what has already been offered, subtle forms of jealousy arised due to unfulfilled desires, anger, lust and so on. These regions of mind have always remained (and will always remain) and affected mankind and its entirely up to me to renew awareness and centre myself instead of getting caught in the "glue" of these areas of mind. Many people today live in these areas of mind. Predominantly these areas of mind are of the lower chakras below the muladhara --- anger, jealousy, fear, lust and so on. Any of these emotions belonging to the lower chakras -- also called the "lower mind" or "lower astral body" make me (the awareness) identify myself(itself) with those areas, leading to reactional responses in the ego. (Translated: Awareness tends to identify itself with that which it is aware of ---- instead of being pure awareness)

Ancient Indian Yogis even used to wear a sacred thread blessed at the temple -- around their waist, to constantly remind them that they need to keep awareness in those chakras of the spine above the waist (that is --above the muladhara chakra). However for this to be highly effective, it is said that one must take the blessings of the God of Muladhara which is Lord Ganesh. I have decided to do this.

Through understanding comes the realization that the intellect which is so tightly programmed for having affinities for certain set of people and events, favoring certain attitudes for other, or certain zodiacs for other -- all these is in itself a major bondage. Bondage in the mind. The bondage caused by the intellect is more difficult to unwind than the ones caused by the instinct as the bonds caused by it to people are extremely deep rooted and extremely subtle. But it is also easy at the same time, because it doesnt take much time to centre oneself --- all it takes is willpower. Upon this realization however it is possible to shed the personality which was based on that intellect, using the finer intellect. The way to do this is by accepting that we are in this state and that we have identified ourself in this state. Proceed next by renewing awareness, by bringing awareness out of those states of mind --- then and there when the thought arises followed by centering and making awareness flow in other refined areas of mind leading to refined areas of consciousness.

The Conscious and the Subconscious Mind

In the goal for the self, we shed the instinctive mind first, the intellectual mind next, the personality we thought we were next, the subtle things which make up the little you next and so on. Everything has to ultimately be shed and remain as pure awareness if real progress has to be made and i just realized this fact recently. I'm gonna do it from right now and do it every moment as i do take up this resolution on this holy night of Lord Shiva -- the Maha Shivarathri. Aum Namah Sivaya