ego

i am the ego, i keep talking all the time, i have strong opinions about thigs and places, i am aware of my defects, but when i am going on doing my business, i am being observed by .... ?

i am also called as personality, i am upset when things are going their own way and i cant do anything about it, i cannot accept failure and helplessness, i want to live my life my way, i am the little "i", but when i am going on doing my business, i am being observed by .... ?

i am the doer, i make plans, i observe and i comment, why am i not the "be"-er in a state of being and end up being the do-er instead?

i decide what to eat, i decide if i need to be good or bad, i anticipate the future and brood about the past, meanwhile i am being observed right "now" by .... ?

i know theoretically that i'm not the giver but just a channel for giving, yet i am affected when i give and i feel i'm being taken for granted, i know i'm yet to realize - that from the big perspective - there is no giver, gift or giving - its just the universe re-arranging itself

As long as there is a 'you' doing or not-doing, thinking or not-thinking, 'meditating' or 'not-meditating' you are no closer to home than the day you were born.

~The Tenth Man" by Wei Wu Wei...